last night i was so nervous for my show because i haven’t done one in so long and i was convinced i was going to forget all the lyrics and everyone would just stare at me and none of my friends would show up and i’d have to face a bunch of mean people afterwards but that’s not what happened at all. i remembered (almost) all the words except for this one part of justin bieber where i had to improvise and sing about justin timberlake instead because let’s face it the bieber fever has broken and there were a billion people singing my lyrics that i didn’t even know anyone would memorize yet. at the end i caught two shirts and a bra and felt like the queen of the world and even though i always get a lil emotional and have to curl up in a lil ball and cry for a few minutes after every show, i didn’t cry for that long this time because EVERYONE i invited showed up and all my friends came backstage to hug me and form a human wall vs the weird people who were sneaking back to find me. i got to watch nina sky play (2004 me was so stoked) and there was this cool gif photobooth and lots of fun people to hang out with and i got to meet a lot of really really big fans who made me feel way better. i got to come home and curl up in a (warmer) ball and now that i’m awake i realize that even though people i used to be friends with like to make me feel bad, im far away from them now and they can be as mad as they want because now i have friends who like me because i’m kitty and not because i’m easy to take advantage of.